Sunday, November 29, 2009

40 Something and Blogging

So...here I sit staring at the computer.
I'm a 40-something, divorced/single, fairly attractive and fun gal that is attempting to do what I had once considered a boring thought. I'm blogging! Funny, I'm not quite sure what it is that I am supposed to "do" with this. Do I have anything truly important to share with my friends and the rest of the world??
I think I have recently reached an age where I am feeling the inevitable mortality of us all.  Am I the only one that aches every morning, tires a little more easily, and covets my sleep time, yet can't seem to sleep?
I wonder if having children and a family to care for have an effect on this? It seemed that when I went from being single to an instant family of 6 (including myself and ex), that I somehow became an instant "matriarch machine".  I lived on just a few hours of sleep and yet I could miraculously do several loads of laundry, cook, clean, work and shuttle 4 kids around without even thinking about it!   And here's the clencher.... I LOVED IT!! Thus, I have determined that single 40-somethings (like myself) tire easily because we can.
Which translates into ..... I need to get a life! Not just any life....I truly want a family of my own again.  I miss my stepkids (and now stepgrandkids) and they will always be a part of my life, but I need my own.  It's just not the same!!
Ohhhh....and now we are getting to my dilemma.  I think I will leave you in suspense and save that topic for another day.  I smile...Wondering if anyone really even reads this anyway.
Signing off....until tomorrow.

3 comments:

  1. I can't wait until you are a mom! You'll be great!

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  2. Aw...geesh...Holle, you just made my day. That really means a lot having coming from an awesome mom like you. Congrats on your new addition, by the way!! How many does that make now..5 or 6 ? I'm losing count! Makes me sad I can't claim Avery as my new Great Niece but I'm still just as happy and proud of you! Love ya!

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